Random Note #2

But, then again...
What IS life without fighting, anyway?

• Friends fight
• Parents fight
• Married couples fight
• Siblings fight
• Countries fight
• Rivals fight

Fighting is what keeps life...balanced in a way. We can't all go around loving the ground every other person walks on, or so we think. We, the supposedly civilized human race, HAVE to:

• Voice our opinions
• Discriminate like HELL
• Insult, complain, and brag

All of these things get us in deep sh*t one way or another. Sure, my blog can fall into the wrong ands. But where will that get ANYone? Honestly? The satisfaction of having someone's venting place kicked off the web? Hey, be my guest. I"ll just change my domain name and start a new one, and guess who'll be my newest victim? YOU. But after all, where DOES fighting actually land us? There are a few outcomes of fighting.

• It could bring friendships closer
• It could demolish a friendship and create permanent enemies
• It could totally destroy romantic relationships

Sure, obviously fighting is THE worst thing ever discovered. So why do we? Hmm. It does depend on who is fighting. Let's go back to the list of who fights and kind of brainstorm, shall we?

· FRIENDS fight because of/over…
o Toys
§ Mainly for younger friends
§ But if you’re older and still like little trucks and all that hey I’m not stoppin’ ya!
§ Of course there is also playing cards and pool toys and billiards. And yes, I call it billiards and not pool. Pool is a giant bowl with water in it. Haha.
o Common ‘love interests’
§ Mainly for girls, but boys sometimes can…I think? Haha.
§ By the way this is when two friends share the same feelings for the same individual
· PARENTS fight with their KIDS because of/over…
o Grades
§ Ah, probably the most common reason, it doesn’t even matter if it’s an F on a test or a C- on a report card, it’s gotta happen in a lifetime.
o Drugs
§ Obviously not as popular; I’ve never laid a finger on illegal drugs, but God do I know this can happen.
o They’re pissed and wanna take it out on you
§ Trust me. It happens. Take it from someone with background on this subject.
· MARRIED COUPLES fight because of/over…
o Money
§ Obviously. But this is a sticky situation, you never know what happens. Money can kill ANY relationship.
o Pets
§ Yup, this happens too. Trust me. We got a cat and a HUGE dog without my dad’s permission. He got PISSED. We as in my mom and brothers and me.
o The TV
§ Oh dear, I’m sure everyone’s heard of ‘the remote control battle.’ If not, then it’s when the guy wants to watch football, yet the chick wants to watch a romantic chick flick. First one to the remote control with all four limbs wins.
· SIBLINGS fight because of/over…
o Game Controllers
§ I remember the very first Mario brothers game we had, we practically killed each other trying to claim ‘Player One’ as our own. I still don’t know why…but we did and that game was AMAZING.
o Shotgun
§ Ah, the thrill of being able to see the road right before it went under you, and yeah we definitely fight still over this seat in the car. Pathetic I know. Talk to my little brother.
o Because some siblings have it scratched into their minds that fight = love. AKA Ben Johnson, my dear little brother.
· COUNTRIES fight…
NO DUH.
· RIVALS fight because…
o They were already fighting in the first place…

So you see, there are so many REASONS for fighting, just no common purpose. We may think there’s a purpose in the beginning, but it really doesn’t get you anything other than wasted time.
WASTED TIME being someone’s friend just to end up fighting and not being friends with them after
WASTED TIME fighting with someone just to become friends again
WASTED TIME being in a relationship with someone just to end up fighting and breaking up.
Although, some could argue that it’s not wasting time, just learning lessons and learning more about people, but how come we can’t do that without fighting? Hmmm? EXACTLY.
And YOU just got dominated!!
Deep, huh?

Random Note #1

WARNING. DEPRESSING MATERIAL.

Haha, no really. I warned you...

Christmas Time. AKA "happy time."
So why aren't I? Really? I am so depressed, no one could ever possibly understand. No one. Today we made sugarcookies-actually decorated them. Me and my dad. Just us. He made a 'joke' that was just hilarious to HIM. This was it...

So when I was making these cookies it scared me so bad, when I looked at my hand, my wedding ring was gone!

Oh, haha. Sooo funny. I tried to act like it didn't bother me, but it did. Like a lot. And the past two days we haven't had school because of snow. So this gives me memories of past snow days when we'd all, my WHOLE family, crowd together around the fire and drink hot cocoa and watch TV together. I miss my whole happy family, more than I have ever missed everything in my whole life put together. Why did they stop loving each other? Why couldn't they have stayed in counseling? Why after all those years they just quit? Who knows. No one will ever get up the guts to ask them these questions. I probably don't actually want to know these things anyway. Oh, and my dad was like 'so you have a boyfriend yet? Or still single?' and I was like 'still single.' and he said 'me too. It's not fun. Notttt fun.' I was just like. Sorry, you don't have to rub it in that you and mother are divorced and I already feel like it's my fault enough. But yeah, thanks pops. I looked up to them as a couple. I...yeah. I am now doomed to a life of depression and morbin thoughts. My brothers are totally fine. Yet this whole thing is absolutely killing me. Like it's really death in a pretty little box. Without the 'in a pretty little box' part. A while ago my mom started a blog that my dad made her change to private because she always bashed him. But one day I went on the computer and there was a window open talking about how they're splitting things and how my dad told my mom she's getting nothing...why didn't I take the hint??

'CAUSE I'M STUPID.

THAT'S WHY.

DUH.

Mkay, I'm leaving now.

Bye

Melanie

P.S. I wrote this Friday December 19th in my notebook.

NUMBER 19

Howdy, buddies?!
Yeah...there really hasn't been many things to vent about. Likeee nothing at all. Which is way lame.



SNOWWWWWWWWWWW IS HEREEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! ish. It really does need to more though, it's pissing me off. Especially in the mountains!! COME ONNN. Skiing. Yes. Need. Nowww.
I need to pwn Taylor at a ski-snowboard race. You know I'll win Taylor! You know it!!
You too, Artur!! It may not happen--but I'd win!! Maybe. I don't know anymore, you seem too confident...hmmm. I am in a pickle.


Actually not really, I just wanted to say I'm in a pickle. 'Cause who the hell wouldn't wanna be in a pickle?! Anyways. Melly's in another odd mood...Hum. Quite vexing. (advanced word!!)

Mr. BRM was nice to me today...he asked if I needed help tuning. But apparently he thinks I'm stupid. I've been in orchestra since 4th grade--yeah I definitely don't know how to tune.

ANYWAYS. I've got to go--I smell nummy food!!

Loves!
~mel~

NUMBER 18

......oh my god. Do I have an SDC story for you guys. Holy Hell. K here we go.
SHORT DISPROPORTIONATE CHICK
So we were in the practice room with 'Michelle,' Jake, Sun-Min, and Yuni. (Me and SDC too. duhh haha.) Mkay. So pretty much...she CAN'T play our piece. Like at all. And Michelle was getting soooo pissed off, it was priceless. And of course SDC (whoa, almost used her real name haha. again...) was getting hella frustrated at her. And of course THAT frustration radiated toward everyone else in the tiny room, mainly toward me and Michelle the worst. So I don't even know...how it started. But like...her face was all red and blotchy and she had huge puffy bags under her eyes. And this was our conversation:
SDC: like my nice eyeshadow down here?
Melly!: uh...eye shadow goes on your eyelid.
SDC: OH MY GOD I KNOW!!! people in third period (didn't even HAVE that class today) made me cry!! LOSER!!!!!!
Melly!: *repositions so my body is facing her and it's like I'm saying exCUSE me?!* uh. ha. LOSER?!
SDC: yeah.
Melly!: oh my god. I'm f*ck*ng done with you. I'm SO done with you.
SDC: yeah?! i'm done with you too!!
And it just went on and on. It was PRICELESS. holy hell. And so when we came back out to play for Mr. BRM, Michelle and I looked at each other and I did that whole gun in the mouth thing because of SDC, and SDC looked! But she didn't know it was because of her, so she laughed ahahaha. But I was like '...what are you laughing at?' and she was like 'oh I just thought of something.' and I said 'okay?' and she was like 'it's none of your business!!!'

........I said okay. Not 'what did you think of?'. Jesus.
Ugh. OH!!!!!!!! So mine and Alicia's group is the only one without 4 people in it. Tiffany makes the third one, but guess who doesn't even HAVE a group?




Short.
Disproportionate.
Chick.

Yeah. I know.
OH and she's the only girl who doesn't have a group.
So me and Alicia are screwed for the Ellensburg trip.

I'm gonna go take deep calming breaths.
~mel~

P.S. is anyone else FREEZING?! God I need snow to come, or I'll be pissed. All this cold-ness for nothing. AHHHHH SKIING SOON!!!!!!!!

NUMBER 17

Today's whole blog is dedicated to the WHOLE James family. And yes, I used their real names. I don't think they deserve any better. Plus, they'll like the attention, the bastards. K here we go.

The James Family.

You're douches. To put it lightly, honestly. God...k I'm going to tell my readers what they're doing this year.

K one sec this center align is bugging me haha, and I'm too lazy to highlight this and press right align...or is it left align...we'll find out!!

IT'S LEFT ALIGN! Haha, anyways. So my older brother wanted to have a halloween party this year, since it's the last year all his friends are going to be together. My mom was frantic trying to get everything sorted out and decorated, so she blogged about how she needed a fairy god mother to make it all happen. (And mosey sorry I really just have to vent about this. You have nooo idea.) And Heather, the mother [keep in mind: I have HATED. this family since forever, like holy hell. SOOO much.] she texts my mom saying 'I'm your fairy god mother. What do you need, I'll do it.' So my mom was like okay, thats really nice. So she gives Heather MORE than enough money to get the decorations done. And thanks her SO much more than anyone ever should thank that f*cken whore. Anyway. Only Heather and her mom were supposed to go into our house. But later, my younger brother texted my mom saying 'Why are the James's at our house?' and my mom never told him about it, so she thought maybe he saw their car on our driveway (we were living with my dad at the time) Mmmkay. So she tells him. And then...he texts her saying 'WHY IS EMMA IN MY ROOM?!?' (emma james. bitch. not even going to block out a vowel for that one, sorry mosey.) This started this whole thing where Heather says she was just kidding, she wasn't in his room. My mom got home, and there was a wad of that fake spider web on ben's bed.

YEAH. A JOKE.

And the reason why I've always hated this family with a passion is that they never DON'T get what they want. They always do. They make a huge show about showing people around them how they won't get whatever they want. Yet we always know they do.

And Emma did something unforgivable...and totally embarrassing so I can't exactly say what it is. But it starts with her being jealous about me being so thin and fit. Not even kidding. She's...uhm...let's just say the opposite of me.

ha.

UGH.

But yes, thank you James family, for being hoe bags. Every last one of you.

~mel~

NUMBER 16

DUDEEEEEEEEEE!!! K lets do this.
SHORT DISPROPORTIONATE CHICK
Funniest thing in orchestra today. Holy fricken HELL. Oh my god, k so I went to the nurse for the first...half? Of orchestra, I couldn't breathe. Haha, which is usually a bad thing. So when I get in, Mr. BRM tells me to go to the practice room where 'Michelle,' SDC, and Sun-min were. I was like 'oh. This should be oodles of fun.' IT FRICKEN WAS MAN. Holy helllllllllll. So my older brother needed to borrow my violin, so I just had to watch those three play. And so Sunmin is from Korea, and doesn't speak English very well. When they stopped playing, SDC just started totally talking and never stopping, I can't remember what it was about. But Sun-min was like 'I wish I talk English that fast.' and we totally CRACKED THE HELL UP. like ALL of us!! BUT THEN!!! SDC kept going on! She was like this:

'oh i know! you should see me on caffeine, when i'm on caffeine i'm like through the roof! its so funny, my parents are like whoaaa. dude i text faster than i talk! isnt that insane? my parents took away my phone cuz i scared them...'

No one in their right minds will ever WANT to see SDC on caffeine. Okay, maybe me, just to get a laugh out of it. But other than that!! Actually...I think they should sell tickets to see that! Dudeee. And SDC came up to me during lunch and now apparently she's lactose intolerant. Somehow. Ha. 'Cause she drank a glass of milk. And her stomach hurts...
Ahem. *Awkward Cough*
But anyways, it was so freaking funny. It would've been easier to get the funny-ness if you were there hahaha you SHOULD have been there! Holy dudeee.
I think thats all...other than my dad b*tching about me doing my stupid medicine that doesn't do sh*t for me. But ya know. Oh, and how I should do things he says while I'm driving. Even though they have nothing to do with me LEARNING how to drive. Like I was driving. And ONE SECOND. not exaggerating. One second before I passed my little brother walking home from school, he told me to pull up behind him. I couldn't. So I told him that, and kept driving. When we got home, he got pissed at me. 'I had this same problem with William, when I tell you to do something, do it. Okay?' ..............................................................................Yeah. Ugh.

Anyways. I think that's allllll =]
Loveee,
~mel~

NUMBER 15

Ahhh. My tummy hurts mucho. But hola! I am listening to my iPod on shuffle, and now I shall begin venting. Yay!
SHORT DISPROPORTIONATE CHICK
UGH so she IS my freaking stand partner for solo ensemble! WHY?!?! Mr. BRM hates me, that's why. But the second violins for our piece went into the practice room (the seconds include: SDC, Michelle, Me, Jake, Sun-Min, and Yuni. The last 4 aren't changed names haha.) and we were like SO super close together. And me and Michelle are goofing off talking about...weird stuff? I can't remember. But anyways, I look over, and SDC was doing Plié's!!!!! For you who don't know ballet terms, those are when you cross your ankles, and bend your knees. SHE WAS DOING THOSE. So this is our conversation.
Me: *stares at her questioningly* having fun?
Her: oh, yeah, if I don't do these, I'm gonna get injured today.
Me: .....really? how...?
Her: I injured my knee this weekend.
...............yeah. Uh-huh. Sureee. She was doing that while sitting though, except extending her knee. Then she explained her 'situation' to everyone around her. I was just like. Uhmm wow. Oh and in the practice room, she asked me and Michelle 'How do you guys stay so skinny yet are able to eat?' Michelle was like 'EXTREMELY fast metabolism, and athletics. I run.' And SDC was like 'really?? Who do you run with? I run with B. Hagen.' YEAH F*CKEN RIGHT MAN. Then she went on and on saying how B. never talks...so he's shy. Is that a bad thing? I'm shy sometimes. People just need to get to know me. But seriously....


I'm not even kidding--I wanted to CRACK UP. Oh my GOD. Because if you know who I'm talking about when I say SDC...you'd agree she doesn't look like the type who runs. Especially with B. Honestly...Ugh. Funny day today. Very funnyyy. Holy mannn.

HAHAHAHA dude so I have a story!!!
So I asked Michelle if I can get tylenol from my backpack 'cause it felt like my head was going to explode in on itself haha. So she lets me go, and I had to go into the music room hall to get a drink of water, and some of the band was in there and there was this guy who was standing beside the water fountain, and I was like 'oh, sorry I need to get to the water fountain.' and he was like 'oh i'm sorry' and backed off. Kathryn was sitting there with her friend and she was like 'Oh my god Melanie, your boots are so cute! I love your hat! You're so cute today!' And I was like 'aw thanks!' and her friend was like 'dude your shoes are SO cute.' and I thanked her too. And Kathryn was like 'You look like an Eskimo gogo dancer!' ('cause my boots are silver and my hat is all furry and big hahaha) and I was like 'oh...thanks! I think thats a good thing.' and laughed, and when I was almost back to the orchestra room I heard 'I think it's sexy!!' From the guy!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH it totally made my day it was soooooooooo funny. OH man.

If you haven't noticed, my life is just a never-ending 'you had to be there' moment.

Okayyy I shall go now!
På gensyn imorgen! (See you tomorrow!)
~mel~

NUMBER 14

UGH WHAT'S WITH PEOPLE NOT BEING AS ANNOYING AS USUAL?! .......did they read my blog......




...nah.
Hmmm. But today SDC was like in orchestra 'Oh, I'm...gonna need more help on my chemistry from you at lunch...' So first of all, all we're doing in class is that damn pre-lab...? And second of all she never showed up for lunch hahaha. Oh mannn. And also Mr. BRM was like...talking about vibrato and then we practiced a piece and he stopped us and glared at me saying 'we were practicing vibrato. USE IT.'


f*ckin dyke. I hope he dies.
=[
Anyways...I think thats pretty much as annoying as it was today. "/ Very lame...dude so excited for tomorrow though, 1st of all: no math or chemistry! That means a light backpack!!! 2nd of all: aebleskivers for my history class!! Those, fyi, are buttermilk pancake balls covered in sugar then dipped in syrup, then dipped in sugar again. THE most amazing food EVER. Holy jeez, they're seriously deliciousss. Ah man. =] 3rd of all: we're starting to watch 'It's a Wonderful Life' in English tomorrow!! CHRISTMAS IS SOON!!!
I love the feeling of Christmas, it's just all cozy. Well...hopefully Christmas hasn't changed much since the divorce...f*ck. Now I'm depressed...
Oh, I can vent about how sucky last year's Christmas was.
**keep in mind my parents FILED for divorce in november LAST year, but didn't tell us until January 5, so we still have no clue. But my dad had been sleeping on the damn couch for months so I don't see how I couldn't have guessed. But anyways.**

Everything seemed forced. Okay no. Everything WAS forced.

The 'smiles,' 'laughs'...

...everything "/

Actually, there are really no words to fully describe it. It was HORRIBLE.

It makes me want to cry just remembering our last Christmas together.

God damn it.

I'm gonna go now, 'cause:

1. I don't like complaining (I know, I still do it a lot. And I'm sorry)

2. I hate remembering this. But ya know. It's kind of tough to forget something like that.

Bye...

mel.